Saturday, May 2, 2009

R.I.P. Fishy


After talking to MyAnna today, I discovered the fate of Fishy - my dear house pet that I had to leave behind when I left the country. Well, it's no big surprise... Fishy jumped his tank AGAIN, (for like the 7th time in his career!), ended up in ray of sunlight on the carpet floor and dried to a fishy crisp. Poor guy. Feisty little bugger he was, always breaking out of his tank to explore the big big world. I could learn a few lessons from that brave little soul, something like: shoot big, and no matter how traumatizing the fall, you can pick yourself up, try again and still survive (just don't keep trying 7 times, I guess...)

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Mixed Signals

I want a crystal ball to tell me my future. Or maybe I can be a time traveller like Hiro Nakamura. The computer generated 8-ball and Facebook quizzes are certainly not giving me clarity.

Sweden: Yes or No?



Saturday, April 18, 2009

Back in the USA

On April 9th, after 7 months abroad, I returned to American soil. It hasn't been all that "shocking" to be back in the States - not like it was when I returned from 10 months in France. Not surprising, though, since I didn't really immerse myself much in the Scandinavian life, language or culture. I have to admit, overall I'm feeling a sense of relief. I've been ridiculously homesick.

There have been some things that have stuck out though
- Insulation in homes is MUCH better in Denmark/Sweden
- The toilet flush here is mighty powerful!
- My feet aren't used to flip flops and I'm sore in between my toes from wearing them

That's about it.

The Sun is Out and I'm Pissed

It's amazing how the light, the sun, the arrival of Spring and warmer weather can bring about a mental calmness and make things seem better. I don't accept it. After months of being consumed with feelings of anxiety, desperation, insanity I can't believe it can all be washed away with rays of sunlight. I'm angry to have let the darkness invade my life and to not have put up a better fight. This is war. I have a score to settle.
Round 1:
Mother Nature - 1 Shobhna - 0

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

The Update

There will be no posts in Danish, because my Denmark adventure is over. The update is that I quit my job and moved out of Denmark. Although it was a drastic and fatal decision, I don't entirely regret the choice that I made. I made it out of necessity, because I couldn't continue with the way things were. And while I can't really pinpoint how things went so wrong, they did, so I'm sort of at ground zero reassessing my life and trying to figure out the next move.

What happened? It started in October with loneliness and isolation. As the winter months progressed, the cold and darkness seeped in and my hibernating tendencies kicked in full gear. Somewhere mid-November misery and desperation took over. And then I started to isolate myself. Eventually I stopped functioning all together. I decided I needed out, because there was no way I was going to cope or that things would get better. So I put in my notice and forfeited my life in Denmark.

That was 2 months ago. Since then, I moved to Malmö and just fell deeper into depression. I haven't been able to climb my way out of this giant hole I've been in. It's time to go home.

So my wild and crazy Scandinavian adventure has not been so wild and crazy after all. I failed to have any fun, make any friends, travel, learn, enjoy - accomplish anything that I set out to do. Life just crumbled to pieces.

I have the chance to try again with a job opportunity in Sweden. But before I can go forward, I need to get myself to a better place and gear myself up to try this a second time. So here's to the end of Part 1 of this journey. To be continued? I'm not sure yet...

Friday, November 14, 2008

This fire is outta control...

Its too wet and cold here to catch on fire. +1 for Denmark.

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More than 100 homes burned in California blaze

  • Story Highlights
  • Three people suffer burns, 10 smoke inhalation
  • Winds of up to 70 mph could fuel flames through Saturday
  • Fire threatens roughly 1,500 homes in Montecito, officials say
  • Fire covers about 2,500 acres in Santa Barbara County

SANTA BARBARA, California (CNN) -- A wind-driven brush fire roaring through the canyons of Santa Barbara County has burned more than 100 homes, injured 13 people and charred more than 2,500 acres, a county spokeswoman said.

Fire pours from a home ignited by a wildfire in Montecito, California, on Thursday night.

Michelle Mickiewicz said residents of more than 4,500 homes were ordered to evacuate as flames from the Tea Fire engulfed multimillion-dollar mansions and modest ranch-style homes north of Los Angeles. The blaze began Thursday evening.

Oprah Winfrey and Rob Lowe are some of the celebrities with homes in the upscale, oceanside enclave of Montecito. It was not known if any celebrities' homes have been damaged.

Large homes continued to burn Friday morning.

The fire threatened roughly 1,500 homes, the California Department of Forestry and Fire Protection said.

Winds calmed at daybreak Friday, slowing the spread of the fire, but were forecast to pick up to 50 mph to 70 mph through Saturday.

One firefighter suffered burns and was transferred to Sherman Oaks Burn Center. Two civilians who sustained burns were transported to the burn center in Irvine.

Ten were treated for smoke inhalation, officials said.

More than 500 firefighters are fighting the blaze.

A firefighter said overnight that the environment was ripe for a fire.

"A lot of the brush and trees and stuff are right up against the structures, and this one happened so fast that nobody had any advance warning at all, so there was really not much we could do or the homeowners could do in this case," he said.

"You can just hear the explosions ... of vehicles, homes," Michaelo Rosso told KCAL as he prepared to leave his home. "It sounds like the Fourth of July out here."

"It looked like lava coming down a volcano," resident Leslie Hollis Lopez told the Associated Press.

"We drove through tunnels of thick gray smoke," CNN's Paul Vercammen said. "Smoldering embers are floating everywhere. ... There's orange glows of similar burn areas all around us."

The flames roared onto the campus of Westmont College in Santa Barbara, forcing students and staff to take cover in the school gym.

Several buildings, including dormitories, the school's physics building and more than a dozen homes in Westmont's faculty housing area, have been lost or "significantly damaged" by the fire, the school said in a statement on its Web site.

College officials said they hope to evacuate to a Red Cross shelter as conditions permit.

Authorities ordered evacuations between Mountain Drive and Highway 192 and between Cold Springs and Sycamore Canyon Road in the Montecito area of Santa Barbara County.


Props to Drew for publishing the First Official Tea Fire Press Release. Hope you and everyone else are doing alright in smoldering Santa Barbara

Saturday, October 25, 2008

Mastering Swedish

Yes. I can relate.